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See if it works.

Aidul Adha is here again, for the day where we will stand on this very day in the mount of Arafat, to be only with The One, The Only, The Creator. For it is the place where Adam and Eve are finally reunited after 40 years of repentance and of their removal from the Heavens. It’s not just a festival, but something to reflect by. For what had happened and what is to become of we.

This year, I set forth something I really wanted to do. With all the burden of pain, misery and problems bestowed upon me, all I ask from Him is that He grant me the wish of accepting me to be His guest at His Blessing in the next year. I have said and placed the intent of such a request for many years now, to be derailed by financial ruins and many times of what people said that we must clear our debts and dues before we set sail on such a journey.

Yet, for me, many things happened to me in the month of Dzul-Hijjah, the month of the Hajj. Hijjah is also understood that we as men should travel from one city to another seeking better life or to run away from oppression as in the Quran : “Didn’t We provide you the Lands of Allah for you to seek refuge in?” . It is said that if we don’t succeed in one place, we must move on and seek out the other pastures for the world belongs to Allah as the sayings of the Prophet that we “should seek knowledge till the ends of China” which was about circa 610 AD and even in those days, the Arabs know of the Glory and Knowledge of the Chinese or in those days, the Mongols and Hans.

Reflecting back to what happened to me for the past many decades, all happen mysteriously in the holy month. That it is commanded that we forgo trade in anticipation of the Hajj. I even had near death experiences in the month of Dzul Hijjah. Maybe it is my own life I have to sacrifice to seek refuge and blessings from Him, that only by the faith of placing my own self preservation in pure belief of His Light.

It is the same Ordain that Ismael and Abraham was ordered to sacrifice of Ismael’s life by means of a dream of his father , Abraham. For Abraham is Qalam Allah or the Pen of Allah, for he is the only one who receive the commandments directly by Allah All Mighty as compared to the rest, who received theirs through Gabriel , the Arch Angel. For God created Man to read using the Qalam.

Many would have said that near death experience will bring wonders, and for me, it was twice, of different years apart in the same month, and reminder to me of the Teachings of the Light, for reading the Quran is insufficient but without the understanding of what is being said, and the events relating to that script being handed down from Him. Though as much as I can, maybe this is the last time I would have to wait to be His guest, for The Path of the Light is about being charitable and of being kind to others. A time to repent and time to seek Him as opposed to what I have always been, in the corporate rat race.

For me, I have to say it out, for You have called, and Here I come. Labbaik Kallahumma Labbaik, Labbaik Kala Syariqalabaiq as being chanted by the Pilgrims throughout, for Here You called my Lord and Here I have answered it, for there is no other worthy of worship but Allah, the One God. For He is the God of the Children of Israel , Followers of the Scriptures and Decedents of Adam.

Honey, for many times I have been hurt

For the hurt still stays with me,

Those years go by and it still aches me in my heart,

That those memories will always stick to me,

For it is said by the wise of the dead,

That the memories that I have buried, Shall not be exhumed

For they will haunt me dead, or me a walking zombie

For everyone has skeletons in their closet

For I am always in error

For my err now is that I love you too much

To loose you again.